Self care is #1 DAY 5
Jul 13, 2018
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my normal normal to aches three sausages
yes you see more on my plate but it's
because I also feed my babies when I'm
eating so but I only eat normally one
egg and two sausages for a total of 200
calories for breakfast
morning so we are off today to run some
errands get some stuff done that needs
to get done
it's 87 degrees here right now and it's
only middle of the morning so anyways I
just want to check in with you guys say
morning morning and I will check in here
soon you know the one thing that I can't
stand is traffic traffic and it seems
like where I'm living is nothing but
traffic now like everywhere we go it's
stop stop stop stop stop
and it definitely teaches me about
patience because when I'm in stuck in
the car it's like get me out of here and
yeah there's no closeness to where we're
gonna be with
yeah
traffic how's the traffic where you guys
live
share with me in the comments I want to
know and this is my famous tea I always
get it is a green tea flavored with
sugar-free raspberry it's zero calories
hey everyone so I am just checking in
with you guys and letting you know that
we came up to Silver Falls which is here
in Oregon it's a beautiful park it has
tons of waterfalls and hiking trails
it's beautiful and for the kids to be
able to play and have fun it's so nice
and its comments peaceful this is like
my favorite place to come when we just
want to get away from the city fees but
it's just it's a beautiful beautiful
place and again like I was singing last
night you know or yeah last night little
movement means big big stuff you know
little change makes big movements and
you know little by little every day I'm
trying to get out and do fun things and
just trying to move my body just a
little bit and definitely just make
effort that's the biggest thing is just
effort if you put your efforts in the
100% you're gonna see results no matter
what it so we came up here to bring the
kids and just have some fun and if you
can see in the background right there is
a beautiful waterfall and there's tons
more that I will insert pictures of of
different waterfalls throughout the the
park and hopefully you guys enjoy the
pictures
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okay lunchtime check-in it's kind of a
late lunch actually it's 3:00 almost
3:30 but since having such an active
morning we didn't have time to really
stop and have lunch so I went ahead
since we're out and we're not close to
home right now and we're getting stuff
to make dinner tonight which we're gonna
have fish and shrimp yummy we went ahead
and stopped at Subway so I'm just gonna
get a six-inch turkey sub on we know
manis lots of veggies and it will be 277
calories so not a bad lunch
technically especially when I've all
I've only eaten today was breakfast I
haven't even eaten a snack but that's
just because we've been on the go so
anyways I'm just a check-in I will
insert a picture this is just a copy and
pasted picture
I completely forgot to take a picture of
my sandwich but it was 277 calories for
my entire sandwich so I just went and
dropped my family off my kids off and it
was like you know I just really need
just really needed some downtime just
some just quiet you know I I love my
kids I do I love them to death but
sometimes as moms we especially being
stay-at-home mom sometimes you could
just have too much with your kids you
know and so it's kind of where I'm at
right now is just like I
but as much as I love my kids sometimes
it's a healthy thing to just get some
brain it's like some downtime so I asked
my husband I was like hey you know do
you mind if I you know just go to the
park and just relax just you know just
take some time for myself now mind you
it is like almost 100 degrees right now
under a shade but it's okay
and a lot of people are gonna make
comments because they're gonna be like
oh my god how are you doing it with a
jacket honest to god
it does not bother me my body is so
adjusted to the heat was being covered
that it does not I'm gonna get this
right it doesn't affect me like it was
before like before when I very first did
convert it was I'm honestly it was
really hard but you know as the years
have gone by I'm just so used to it that
it doesn't even affect me like it's part
of me that it doesn't faze me to put
this stuff on any especially because I
do keep myself cool like I will not wear
sweaters in 90 degree weather like it
just ain't gonna happen
no but I do you know I do wear you know
clothes that cover but also give me some
breathing space breathing space sorry so
yeah it that he honestly it doesn't
bother me like in fact really I mean I
don't like heat anyways just in general
I don't like heat so most of the time
when it's this hot you don't hardly see
me out like I I become a hermit stay in
my house where it's like sixty degrees
because my air conditioner or I will be
in the car with the air conditioned on
but right now it's so beautiful out that
I just don't want to have my windows up
I just want to listen to the water I'm
actually down at the Willamette River
Park here in Salem so again for the ones
that don't know it's just it's a really
nice Park I'm gonna flip my camera
around here in a second and show you my
view but I come here a lot
just to get a little bit of some
downtime and sometimes just some
thinking time sometimes I need that you
know and refresh myself so when I go
home I could be refreshed for my babies
and and just have that that a me time so
I'm gonna flip my camera so you guys can
see what I'm seen okay so here is the
view
there's the water I'm gonna flip my
camera oh people can go swimming out
here they can do just anything there's
like benches where you can have lunches
and stuff there's a bridge right there
and it goes clear across it's that one
you can go clear across to walking by so
that way then which is really cool and
then they also put another bridge not
too long ago up over here that they can
walk over and then other bridges you see
are the only way in and the only way out
of my part of the town which is West
Salem so if like there's an accident or
something it can take like did this
morning when I shown you guys the
traffic yeah it was because there was an
accident and if there is an accident
you're paying the consequences because
you will be stuck in traffic for however
long it takes to either move the
accident or whatever because well that's
your only way in and your only way out
there trying to get it to where they'll
build another bridge which we're hoping
for but we'll see anywho so yeah I'm
just down here at the park just kind of
just spending some time for myself and I
think I'm gonna work on another video
while I'm sitting down here to get ready
for you guys
I know you guys have asked a lot of
questions regarding like my conversion
again when I make the video please do
not think that it's a video that I'm
trying to make you guys feel like you
have to be what I am because that's not
even considerably remotely close to what
I'm trying to do I'm just trying to
answer some questions for other people
that have curiosity and curiosity is a
big thing and I'd rather them ask then
not know and just assume that my life is
a certain way because that's what they
think it is so the video that I'm gonna
put together it's my conversion video
but again I'm not preaching to anybody
I'm not telling somebody that
or anything because that's not my job
I'm not here to judge or tell you guys
what to do just just isn't my job so in
return I'm gonna go ahead and start
making that video for you guys and
you'll see that one here really soon so
stay tuned and I'll see you soon
oh and one more thing there was a change
in dinner so we were gonna go get the
fish in the shrimp but my littlest one
woke up and she was fussy and it's hot
so my husband's like and I had to go pee
so bad because I drink so much water
today
so I was like you know what can we just
like go home and maybe do fish another
night like I really need to go to the
bathroom the baby needs to get out of
the car and stretch her legs and he's
like yeah that's fine so we're just
gonna go ahead and I'm gonna have some
leftovers from last night plus it's
gonna make me a grilled chicken and then
I don't know what he's gonna have but
anyways for me I'm gonna have the
zucchini soup and the chicken so I'm
excited for dinner it was all season so
tonight for dinner was a repeat from
last night except I had chicken instead
of beef and the zucchini soup it all
came to 420 calories for my entire
dinner good evening
so we are closing day six oh my gosh
they sakes today was a long hot day it
got at one point it got to 102 degrees
yeah that's that's typical for our
Sundays for the most Sundays for our
summers but definitely doesn't mean
everybody's ready for it at least not
for me um sorry this is driving me
bonkers so I'm hoping the lighting is
okay in here I'm actually in the guest
room I ran and hid from my children for
a moment because they're getting ready
for bed it is because it is bedtime here
so anyways but today we're really good
for the most part I
I think I've logged everything that we
did we went to the Silver Falls which
was really fun I love just sitting and
listening to the the waterfalls and the
birds and it's just it's so peaceful and
I just love it and then I went sat at
the park for a little bit by myself and
just had some of me time and that's so
important to always take you know just
you need self-care you know because if
you don't do self-care and I had to
learn that like I'm not used to that I'm
not used okay this is really gonna bug
me now it's all off you didn't I just do
it off um if you do not do self-care for
yourself then you can't be there to help
others and it took me about a year
because of being in counseling that I've
learned that it was really really hard
and it still is so - excuse me it still
is sometimes for me to say hey you know
honey I need some time for myself he's
always like telling me go go go to the
park go this go that and I just I don't
do it I don't like - I love being with
my family I love being with my kids and
so nine out of ten I will shoot it down
and go like now it's alright I'll just
stay home but then it's like you have
those days where it's like oh my god let
me out I've got to go and today was one
of those days so he was like yeah go go
go go just go and spend some time so
that's what I did and I was there for
about two hours so it was nice um I know
that I said I was gonna do my conversion
video at the park but he decided well
hold on I did do the conversion video at
the park but then I don't know what I
was thinking but I was scrolling through
and I was adding videos to my albums so
that I don't get it mixed up and oops it
went in the garbage so I get to remake
it which is fine it's really fine it's
not a big deal but
sometimes you make those mistakes and
you can't pull them out of the garbage
can once they're gone so it's like
everything I just did goodbye it's okay
I won't remake it no but yeah today was
a really good day though I will have to
say it was we just went just did things
things that need to get done and going
to the bank paying a couple bills that's
not ever fun um but then just when it's
been some time with the kids and just
letting them get out and roam around and
my littlest son so my three year old he
is a fanatic about bugs like seriously
last summer I was by myself of course I
had just dropped my husband off to go
pick up so I don't remember what it was
and he was in another car so I mean he
was able to drive well anyway so I was
driving and I stopped at Sonic cuz I was
gonna give my kids an ice cream worst
mistake I could have ever done so I'm
sitting there the drive through it all
of a sudden my little boy serves blood
squirrel screaming now remind you he was
only two at the time so he couldn't
really tell me like what was going on
but he was blood squirrel screaming I'm
thinking oh my god did like a bug flying
that the the window and bite him or you
know I'm thinking a bee or something you
know cuz it's summertime so I'm like
freaking out thinking holy crap what is
going on with my baby like he was just
trembling so I get to the window I pay
the lady I'm like you guys are gonna
have to bring my stuff out like I've got
to go park I've got to get him out of
his car see what's going on just like oh
my god okay so I get him out of his car
see and he is just like tearing me apart
trying to get away from the van and I'm
thinking oh my gosh like really what is
rive looked at in his car to see well
then I seen a bee like in the very back
of my van I'm thinking oh my god he got
stung like something happened like he
got stung by a bee so then I'm looking
around looking for where he would have
got stung and I'm thinking okay I'm not
seeing nothing the stupid bee he's still
flying around the back of my van so now
I'm thinking oh my god okay I've got my
baby and her infant carseat I've got him
blood squirrel screaming and I got to
get this stupid bee out of my car
so I'm opening up all my doors and
windows and everything trying to get
this stupid thing out finally it gets
out but since then that has traumatized
him like literally it has traumatized
him so now even the littlest bug
anything that flies oh all of Salem will
hear it like literally the other night
we were sitting there and he was over by
the dining room table just plain not
having a good time
and he just buck off crying I'm running
and crying and screaming I'm thinking oh
my god what happened and look up and
it's a little little bitty moth I don't
even know how he's seen it by Xena
so now anywhere we go if it's outside
and something happens like I took the
kids to the park the other day and I was
let him play and lo and behold the only
person at the park had to have a bug
land on him and it was my son with a
ladybug let's just say we had to load up
and leave he was not having it and he
was not gonna stay at the park so we
have to be really careful because if
we're around anywhere and there's gonna
be bugs
it's either we're gonna be fighting off
him or we're gonna be fighting off bugs
and it's like okay you're outside you're
in their environment so you'd need to a
little bit adjust no he expects them to
adjust to him and leave him alone so we
take him out but sometimes we kind of
get cut off like we can't stay or
whatever because he just flips out over
him but it was nice today because we
were able to get out and play and stuff
and there was nothing that bothered him
so of course he enjoyed himself but it
was it was really nice and I came home
and I had a really nice dinner which was
just the leftovers from last night and
then a chicken breast so it was really
good and now I'm just sitting here
looking at my pillow pillow but I'm
thinking about my pillow and it's
calling my name
and it's saying come on Amy let's go
tonight so I think
Knight is it I think I'm I'm finished
for the day
I am so longed but I did not get a
chance to get the toured hall art portal
target haul up but I am I don't think
we're going to be doing anything
tomorrow as far as I'm concerned so I'm
pretty sure I'm gonna be able to get
that up which I'm really excited about
and then oh and then I'm gonna make the
conversion video for you guys so stay
tuned I will have both of those videos
up ASAP I am really really really
working on it again I just want to thank
everybody I say this every single time
but I can't thank you guys enough for
all of the support encouragement if it
wasn't really for you guys I don't know
how strong I would really be right now
because I just I love seen the success
in your guys's eyes as well as myself so
and then somebody didn't ask me if I'm
gonna be doing weigh-ins yes Saturdays I
will be doing my weigh-ins and I will do
them with the video so you guys will see
it on Sundays because I'll do it on
Saturday but I will record when I get on
the my scale and my scale talks so it
will be able to tell us what my weight
is I'm really excited I really I'm not
putting my hopes up for anything I know
I'm doing absolutely everything I need
to be doing so time will tell and time
will show what's going on with my body
so anyways I really hope you guys had a
wonderful day I hope everybody's staying
cool because it looks like it's pretty
hot everywhere except for some of my
friends that are in Australia and
everywhere else over on that side you
guys are in winter lucky but anyways
everybody on my side stay cool I will
see you tomorrow bye
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